I feel like I’m notorious for having horribly bad lows and ridiculously good highs in my walk with Christ.

I can barely hold onto His hand and hardly hear His voice when I’m at home. My impatience and anger and lust and depression and apathy just all combine to make for a very toxic atmosphere around me.

And I’m supposed to be in great condition in less than a month.

I’m supposedly a good Christian, but I can barely concentrate when I read my Bible, and my reading comprehension is poor as well.

Gosh dammit.

Do you still want me back Jesus, after behaving so badly this summer and backsliding so much?


2 thoughts on “August 2

  1. Welcome to being normal in your walk with the Lord. I know for me personally there are way highs and way lows with my walk with the Lord and it is hard. But guess what you are not ever going to get it 100% perfect! His mercies and grace are new every morning so just rest in that ok? Stop trying to be religious and just lean and press into Him! You are not going to get this right til the day you get to go home with Jesus. Does He still want you? I will tell you what my mentor tells me when I ask that “silly woman of course He still wants you” Now, take a deep breath go find some praise music and spend time in worship just go find a place where you can be alone in your worship and just worship the Creator, the Father, Son, Holy Spirit.

    I will be praying for you because I understand where you are at… Cause I am there 100% of the time at least 5 days a week. And my mentor will tell me Sandy go worship and then lets talk… So go worship and see what happens..

    1. You don’t need better sin-avoidance techniques but a new vision of what God’s heart looks like.

      Therefore, I urge you, brothers, in view of God’s mercy, to offer your bodies as living sacrifices, holy and pleasing to God—this is your spiritual act of worship. Do not conform any longer to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God’s will is—his good, pleasing and perfect will. —Romans 12:1-2

      Notice what it says “By the renewing of your mind” Go worship Him the magnificent one who has created you!!

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