7/2

If one member suffers, all suffer together. (1 Cor. 12:26)

Today, someone on my team looked downcast, and I insisted that we pray for him.

If I truly love my brother, which I do– of course I want to pray for him. I mean, it’s a given.

And something I figured out recently, is that we don’t know when our friends and family will die. When given an opportunity to bless somebody, it’s good to take advantage, because regrets aren’t awesome. I mean, God forbid that my cousin die before I go see her this fall… It was nice to send her a little package with a book and card inside.

I know that I went out of my way, and spent a little money, to show her that I love her so much.

God, Your ways are truly perfect. You hate things like school shootings, anxiety, slavery, racism… 

And You are patient with me. I definitely needed to go on this mission trip to get rid of some apathy and work on some fears and get some emotional and spiritual growth.

Thanks Dad. 

6/29

A few weeks ago when I was wildly depressed and feeling unhappy, God knew that I would be in Vail this summer…

How amazing that He looks on at us while we are suffering, and is probably thinking somewhere along the lines of “Baby girl, I know things suck right now, and you’re unhappy… But WOW, have you got some amazing things coming your way.”

Why did He have to make me Mexican American?

Road to Omaha

I had the opportunity to watch my Ags BTHO California at Olsen, and I had bought a ticket for the lawn and standing room only, but luckily, the people in row 8 never showed up, so I got to sit there. God is so good.

Maybe I’ve been blessed with the ability to learn quickly, because after watching just two games, I feel like I really understand this sport a lot better, and I actually enjoy watching it.

This is someone who used to think football and baseball are lame.

It’s funny how Texas A&M has made me more patriotic, I became Christian here, and this school also made me a lover of football and baseball.

Tio Homero

This is my uncle. He has cancer.

This man was once so jolly and loud and a chunky man, and now he’s all skinny and dying…

What. No. Jesus. Please. Why.

My heart. I hate having such a tender heart that loves too easily.

Daddy please.

Last weekend my (kind of) baby cousin and I graduated from Texas A&M, next month one of our cousins is getting married, and in a year I’ll be a bridesmaid for another one of my cousins.

It’s like, my Tio (my uncle) who is part of the older generation is basically dying, and my cousins and I have entered adulthood and are now the aunts and uncles that the youngest generation looks at and thinks is pretty gucci. (I have two nieces and a nephew, that I adore.)

http://www.urbandictionary.com/define.php?term=Gucci&defid=3210506

Well things could be worse.

5/19 thoughts

I don’t think I will ever judge somebody who smokes ever again.

On Saturday night while I was talking to my cousin’s friend, and thinking about the future that is ahead of me, he was smoking, and I swear the uncertainty I felt about life after college made me almost ask him if I could take a drag. But I didn’t because I don’t ever want to smoke, and it’s expensive, and unhealthy, and it’s not good to turn to a substance when feeling emotional.

That was the weirdest temptation ever. These past few months, the temptations I’ve faced have been absolutely crazy. I mean, being an adult, temptations are just thrown at you like crazy, at least in my case.

I’m much more prone to turn to alcohol than smoking, which isn’t that much better, but I am just amazed at how me of all people was tempted to smoke.

And then last night there was a party in my living room, where everybody was doing hookah, and I heard from probably the smartest person I’ve ever met, that you can get demons by doing weed, and I’m not sure how much better hookah is.

What is up with the world closing in on me, tempting me the way it has lately. If it weren’t for my absolute trust in Scripture, I think I would have fallen even harder by now. I’ve stumbled badly in several ways these past few years, but I have no doubt that I’d be in worse shape were it not for my fear of the Lord, and my realization that if everybody slept with anybody they wanted, and didn’t do unto others as they would have people do unto them, and had no respect for the law, WOW society would be a mess and we wouldn’t be able to relate to each other in healthy and good ways.

The Bible basically gives us instructions and help for making a happy and good community. If everybody behaves and fears the Lord and the law of the land, bam. Much happiness and prosperity and peace.

Graduation feels

Tell me why I felt like absolute royalty on Saturday… Wearing my Aggie Ring, holding my diploma, wearing my cap and gown and gorgeous new nude heels.

Jon Thurlow’s song about the prodigal son was running through my mind.

You put a ring upon my finger, You put a robe upon my back, You throw Your arms around me saying “You are My son, My daughter, don’t forget…”

5/17

I can’t help but wonder how tough I have to look and act if I want to be treated seriously and accomplish what I want to accomplish.

It seems to me that manliness and strength are the traits that leaders are made of, and the traits that keep them where they are.

I am so happy I will be going to the mountains this summer, because I need to dream big and think a lot these next few weeks.

I’m not going to sit still, and I’m going to push hard, work hard, and keep fighting… I definitely feel like some people were judging me for my lack of cords at graduation, but the Lord knows how much I went through to get that beautiful piece of paper, and I have every intention of being an important part of the Aggie Network.

Too much venting and thoughts

Maybe this is just vent time, but tell me why, today I was speaking with a classmate that had a cord that I didn’t get, I was of course friendly to him and I enjoy his company and unfortunately really respect and admire him, but I would also find opportunities to have the upper hand while conversing, and be the one that was “winning”…

This was a sort of insecurity that was showing. I was basically telling him through these little actions of mine that uhm, YES I will do big things postgrad, and maybe I don’t have any cords, but that doesn’t mean a thing, and I do command respect damn it, so give it to me, and oh yeah, I don’t need you, I could be speaking to these other people I know, but I’m giving you a little bit of my precious time, you peasant. (Kidding, this boy ain’t a peasant.)

But Jesus, please humble me and show me how to exercise my dominion and authority and look and be strong, but not in an ugly, sinful, off putting way.

Who would have thought that I would turn into someone that can walk confidently and strongly into a room and not be the wimp that I used to be?

Thoughts on Snapchat

I understand the importance of having a Snapchat, but I also can’t get over the mushy journaling that I have to do.

I need both.

GOD I GRADUATED YES MAN YES